The Story Behind CRD Home

Building a Home Within Myself

“Home is not just where you live. It is how you live.”

For much of my life, the idea of home felt abstract. I came to understand that home is not something you find; it's something you create. One room, one practice at a time.

Growing up between countries and moving often, I learned early on how to adapt. We lived in nearly six different homes. Each environment was new, temporary, or uncertain. Home did not feel permanent or easy. It was something I couldn't quite grasp.

The dictionary defines home as a place where one lives permanently, especially as a member of a family or household. But that definition never felt true to my experience. It did not account for instability, emotional complexity, or the quiet detachment I learned in response.

At the same time, I recognize the privilege of my upbringing. I had access to education, resources, and safety that many do not. What I struggled with was not material. It was internal. Emotional. Relational. That shaped how I understood myself and what home could be.

A Fragmented Sense of Belonging

My early years were defined by change. Some seasons were full of care. Others felt temporary or uncertain. At one point, we lived in a hotel my mother managed. It was formative and unusual, but it shaped my view of space and belonging.

My parents’ relationship was loving but often tense. As a child, I became a peacekeeper. I learned how to hold space for others before I knew how to hold space for myself.

When I left for college, I thought I was starting over. But even then, I still carried the feeling of not being settled. During that time, my mother’s health declined. She lost her vision for a period and struggled with mobility. She was living in another country, and I watched from a distance, unable to help in the ways I wanted to.

Eventually, I reached a breaking point. I stepped away from school to take care of my mental health and returned home to care for my mother full time. It was one of the most challenging and meaningful experiences of my life.

My mother had a difficult childhood. Despite that, she created a home for my sister and me. From her, I learned compassion, resilience, and how to care for others even amid chaos.

A Shift in Perspective

When her health improved, I moved back to the United States and began rebuilding my life. I lived with my extended family and started working, but I still carried the weight of everything I had been through. I often felt misunderstood or seen as distant. I was quiet. I was grieving. I was processing.

And then something shifted. I realized that I had been searching for home in other people, in places, and circumstances, waiting for something to offer me the stability I needed.

But what I was looking for was something I had to create for myself.

I also came to understand that the surface of a home rarely tells the whole story. Some people live in beautiful spaces that are emotionally tense. Others live in modest spaces filled with joy and connection. What matters is not what a home looks like, but how it feels.

Home is shaped by how we relate to ourselves and each other. It is the emotional structure that holds us or does not. Every life, every home, and every family is complex. What works in one place may not work in another. This has taught me to approach others and myself with more care.

The Birth of CRD Home

CRD Home was created out of that realization. Not as a business or a brand, but as a personal framework. A place to build a home from the inside out. I began to imagine well-being, creativity, and belonging as a house with four essential rooms:

• The Bedroom is a space for rest and reflection

• The Bathroom is a space for release and renewal

• The Kitchen is a space for nourishment and creativity

• The Living Room is a space for connection and expression

These rooms reflect elements that were always present in my childhood, thanks to my mother’s effort and care. Even in times of instability, she made space for rest, meals, and creativity. But those things were not always easy to hold onto. CRD Home became a way for me to return to them with intention and build something steady from within.

The Ongoing Process

I do not see this story as finished. I still carry the weight of my past. I still have moments of disconnection. Healing is not linear. However, I remain committed to creating environments, both mental and physical, where I can feel grounded, creative, and clear.

CRD Home is part of that process. It is a place to reflect, build, and reimagine what well-being can look like. It is a learning space for me and an open invitation for others.

The Invitation

If you have ever felt unrooted, overwhelmed, or unsure of where you belong, this space offers something meaningful. Not answers, but space. A place to pause, reflect, and come home to yourself.

Because home is not just where you live, it is how you live. And we can build it, intentionally, patiently, and with care.

Welcome home.